Looking at old emails today and reread some great conversations we had. I miss having a friend that always gave as good as she got. Love you! Erin
I miss you Monica. I am thinking about you always. Love, Jinny
You were on my mind lately, maybe because of Antonella, but I keep thinking about you and how much we all lost when we lost you.
Happy New Year Bot! Not a day goes by that I don't think of you and Berta. I miss our calls to one another at midnight on New Year's Eve. I can still hear your happy voice in my head after all of these years. That is one of many memories that comforts me. As you know, Anto is in the hospital and we're all praying that she recovers quickly. Please give her your strength to fight through this battle. We still need her to be here with us. I love and miss you always! Little Lady
Thinking of you today, Monica. I think of you nearly everyday, but I hear your voice and your laughter today... I was at Target and that was my trigger... not that I need a trigger, sister. Love you and miss you, and am working constantly for an end to this... Kim...
Happy 13th Anniversary My Honey. Thinking of you today and remembering our beautiful wedding day. I was so fortunate to have you as my wife and I can fondly recall the happy tears in my eyes as I said my vows. I love and miss you... Your husband, Jon
I just really miss you today. What more is there to say, Monica... love, preppie - remember that???
3 years ago today my beautiful wife Monica lost her fight to breast cancer. Today, I celebrate her life and remember her not only with tears, but with a smile. I am so thankful to have been her husband and for the love that we shared. I said this in front of all our guests on our wedding day and it bears repeating: "I am better person because of Monica. She makes me a better man." Her family, friends and I are truly fortunate to have been touched by such a beautiful soul. I love you always "My Honey". You are forever in my heart ♥ Jon
Overhearing a co-worker's conversation about how she recently lost her sister to Cancer made me think of you (even though you are frequently on our minds). She was describing how brave her sister was and I was brought to tears sitting alone at my desk thinking about you. I just wanted to stop in and say how much you impacted the lives of everyone you touched and that Joff and I miss you every day. “Lady of Leisure” day will never be the same and neither will any of our lives. XOXOXOX
As the three-year anniversary of your departure from this earthly existence approaches, you have been even more on my mind, Monica---and I think of you often, my dear, beloved sister-in-law! I spoke of you yesterday to a friend who I had not seen in over twenty years. As we caught up on the milestones and the important people of our lives in the past two decades, I told her about you: bringing unquantifiable joy and love into my brother’s life; being a wonderful daughter to your parents and nurturing sister to your two siblings; offering generously of yourself to the rest of your large family and even greater group of friends; and serving as an example by standing beautiful, strong, and kind in the face of anything---good or bad. That you are missed and loved goes without saying, and I doubt I will ever be able to not feel that heaviness of heart and stop the flow of tears when I speak of my sister-in-law. Always with much love, Jeff.
I miss our talks so much Mony. I was so glad we were able to visit together and that our friendship continued to grow after our school days I hope you are able to feel the love from all of us I am living my life with you in my heart
Thinking about you today, and remembering trying on crazy dresses with you in that huge, doorless Loehmann's dressing room. You talked me into trying on things I would've never otherwise worn, and were honest with what looked like pure hell. We laughed. Thank you for laughing with me, Monica, and listening to me, and letting me cry, too. I love and miss you, and think about you so often---memories of you and your spirit inspire me!
Happy New Year Bot! I miss you like crazy. Last night was a good time. I thought about all of the great times we had together and even if we didn't celebrate NYE together we always managed to call each other at or around midnight to wish each other a Happy New Year and tell each other how much we loved one another. Those great memories will never be forgotten and I still celebrate with you even though you aren't physically here. I love you too much!
Meeting You was truely a gift,and for that I am very grateful.Your strengh was super-human.You are my hero!!!Your capacity to love is unmeasurable.I miss you so much.I feel cheated that I didn't get to know you as well as would of liked,and yet you made a profound mark in my life.Thank You for friendship,it is treasured.
As this day comes to an end, I wanted to tell you, my honey, that I love you. How truly lucky I was to be your husband and to share my life with you. I smiled all day today just thinking of you and how happy we were. I miss you, but find comfort that I can still feel your love each and every day. Piglet: How do you spell love? Pooh: You don't spell love. You feel it.
Alexis (the other chacha) and I wanted to send our love to you today and let you know that we love you and miss you dearly. We often talk about you and share memories. Alexis says that you are her hero and that one day she hopes to have a heart of gold like you! For me, well, you are the big sister I never had, so I just want to say "Happy Birthday sis!" We love you and miss you !
The Curmudgeon and I, along with all of your friends and family are thinking of you, especially on this day. Joff and I think of you often and miss you forever. As much as you were in life, you are a constant source of inspiration and I still scold myself a little bit when I am complaining about some little ache or pain. We never heard you complain and you overcame so much. Love and miss you.
Participated in the ACS's Relay for Life This weekend. So many beautiful thoughts and memories of you. Thank you Monica. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU ♥♥
Chi Chi, Merry Christmas my honey. I'm thinking of both you and Berta as I spend the holidays over here in DC. Jeff, John and I watched "It's a Wonderful Life" last night. I couldn't help but both smile and cry as we repeated some of the classic lines in the movie. Although it's hard to watch, it reminds me of you and how much we both loved watching it every Christmas. I miss both you and Berta so much and I'm so thankful for the many beautiful holiday memories that you gave me. I will always cherish how you made Christmas special for me. Hopefully next year I will be able to get into the holiday spirit – I know that's what you'd want. You will always be the best present I've ever had. I love you always, "Your Honey"
IF YOU COULD IMAGINE BE FRIENDS WITH THE PERSON YOU IDOLIZED AS A CHILD. I GOT TO BE FRIENDS WITH THAT PERSON MY SISTER MONICA. SHE WAS HIP, COOL, BEAUTIFUL, FUN, ENTERTAINING, LOVING, CARING, INTELLIGENT, DOWN TO EARTH, HUMBLE, DEVINE, AND MOST IMPORTANTLY A FRIEND FOR LIFE. I DON'T THINK MY SISTER EVER MET A PERSON WHO SHE LOST CONTACT WITH. SHE ALWAYS BROUGHT BACK INTO OUR LIVES PEOPLE I HAVE'NT SEEN FOR YEARS. I WAS NEVER SHOCKED BECAUSE IF SHE BEFRIEND YOU, THAT WAS THE DEAL YOU HAD A FRIEND FOR LIFE. SHE WAS ALWAYS THINKING OF EVERYONE MAKING SURE THAT NO ONE WENT WITHOUT OR WAS LEFT BEHIND. IT NEVER MATTERED HOW ANNOYING OR OBNOXIOUS I WAS SHE ALWAYS HAD MY BACK. MONICA LIVES INSIDE ME AND I LEARNED SO MUCH AND I'M SO GLAD FOR THE TIME I HAD IN LIFE TO SPEND WITH HER. MONICA I CANT SAY I DON'T MISS YOU, BUT I KNOW YOU ARE LOOKING OUT FOR ME AS YOU ALWAYS DID. THANK YOU SO MUCH MONICA FOR ALL OF THE UNCONDITIONAL LOVE YOU GAVE ME. I'LL MEET YOU IN HEAVEN SISTER.
I may have only met you once, on Thanksgiving of 2003...but as the 6 year anniversary quickly approaches, I am always reminded of my first Thanksgiving spent with family...and meeting Jon and you, and just feeling sooooooooo welcomed by you :) I smile upon that wonderful day and giving thanks to have met you even for one day. You have helped me appreciate life even more, and I hope to emulate your marriage...your marriage to Jon has been what Bill and I hope our marriage is. I wish I could have spent more time with you, but know that I love you and your soul is now residing in the hearts of many who love you. I am comforted that what you were to others is now being spread by those who love you. Thank you for this gift!
Seems I'm the only one here who did not know Monica, but I felt compelled to respond. It was that smile that struck me and I knew this was a very special person. So I decided to try to learn something about Monica and was touched by what I read. Monica was blessed to know you and you were blessed to know her. And I am blessed because I have come to know through all of you Monica's wonderful spirit. She reminds me that there IS goodness in this crazy, nonsensical world. How can someone ever really die when they've left so much behind? She made the world a better place for all us. May God continue to bless and keep all of you.
11 years ago you became my wife. I remember how happy we were and that I could barely say my vows because I was so emotional. We always said we would get all our friends together on one of our anniversaries, go to Vegas and have an Elvis impersonator renew our vows. That would have been so fun! Watched our wedding video today just like we always would every anniversary. I really miss you and wish you were here with me. Maybe you'll visit me tonight in my dreams. I love you Chi Chi.
My sorrow has remained with me over the loss of my dear, sweet, and beautiful friend. I have cried daily in regret believing I could have done more for her. Visit her more, open up to her more, love her more. I've kept her cards and gifts and hand me downs so that a piece of her could somehow remain with me in these physical things. The memory of Monica is as vivid as ever. Everyday I say to myself, "I can't believe she's gone". This is my sorrow. My comfort is knowing that our Lord and our God prepared a place for her and she is ready to meet her maker on the last day and join Him in eternity, as Livvy Mendoza correctly stated in her May 29, 2008 comment, in her heavenly perfect body. Monica was somebody I wanted to be like; confident, principled, selfless, brave, honest, real. She lived life the way she wanted to live it and she did it with courage and self assurance. I know I'll never be half the person Monica was. Everyday I'm inspired by the way she lived her life. She will never be forgotten.
I miss you Chi Chi. I still struggle just as much today as I did a year ago – it doesn’t seem any easier. I miss holding your hand, being forced to watch Dancing with the Stars, hearing your voice call out to me when I got home, seeing your smile, patting your bootie to help you sleep, and telling you I love you each & every day. I’m trying to be strong and keep moving forward, but it’s so difficult. I’m so grateful to have had you in my life. I know you’re always with me, watching over me and still taking care of me from above. I love you so much. It makes me smile to know that you always knew that.
Missing you so much, Girlie... I can hear your voice and laugh as if you were here, so in many ways you still are... I just ran across the Pamela Anderson book you sent to me; In your memory, I will continue to read trash, watch reality television, and enjoy a good drink not only without guilt, but with pride.
I stayed up until midnight last night to wish you a Feliz Cumpleanos and sang you the famous "Marilyn Manroe" birthday song...like we used to do... = ) This morning I walked outside and the Calla Lilli's I planted were singing your name...= ) I keep a picture of you from your 40th on my desk and today I put a candle on it for you to make your wish with. It's still hard to believe that it's been a year without you here; I miss you soo sooo sooooo much; things are very different without you here!! I think of you everyday and it's always followed by a smile!! It's a beautiful day outside, just like you like it but I'm sure your here with us taking it all in... ; ) We're all celebrating you today in our own way so you have alot of visiting to do today chica... HAPPY, HAPPY BIRTHDAY BEAUTIFUL CHA CHA!!! ...you're TRULY missed!!!
Happy Birthday Monica. I planted the Mums from your Memorial Service. I have been watering and watching them for the last year in hopes that they will bloom annually to represent your presence. You know I have always had a black thumb though! You are greatly missed.
I can't believe a year has passed, it sure doesn't seem like it. You are missed so much, by so many.
How I wish you were here, Monica. I'm so sorry you had to fight so hard for so long; you didn't deserve the pain, Jon didn't deserve the pain...and still doesn't. You two were so lucky to have eachother; it's just not fair, Sister. You know, we're never going to stop until we find the cure, and even though I know that won't bring your physical being back to us, I know that you would approve. You wouldn't want anyone else to have face what you experienced; I feel confident of that. I miss you so much, and I am so blessed to have had you as a part of my life. I hope you know how deeply your spirit, kindness, humor, and will have touched me. I think of you every single day, Monica, and love you so...
I woke up this morning and watched the news. The reporter was in Pasadena invterviewing various volunteers working on the Rose Parade floats. I remember when we were younger we used to stay in our pajamas most of the day on New Year's day and watch the parade on TV. I remember that one time when we were in our teens and we drove to Pasadena on New Year's Eve a little past midnight. We spent the night in your Toyota Corolla so that we could watch the Rose Parade live later that morning. Thank God we had a few bottles of water so that we could brush our teeth when we woke up. I would have hated to be in that massive crowd of people with such offensive breath. I'll never forget that experience. As we got older, we went our separate ways on New Year's Eve but we always managed to get a hold of one another soon after the countdown to midnight. I'll miss getting that phone call from you tonight at midnight. I miss you and Berta. I'm still going to watch the Rose Parade tomorrow so we can talk about our favorite floats. I may even stat in my pajamas all day like when we were kids. :-) I love you and wish you were still here.
I have so many fond memories of spending the holidays together. Decorating the tree each year together and continuing to use the tree topper that you gave me when I lived with Jeff. Our traditional viewing of "It's A Wonderful Life" and "A Christmas Story". Hanging our "leg lamp" lights. Eating empanadas and making our pumpkin cheesecake. Wrapping gifts and you insisting on putting ribbon on all of them. You being the biggest baby because you wanted to open some gifts on Christmas Eve :-) Most of all, I'll remember the joy and happiness you gave me each and every holiday. I was such a "scrooge" and really didn't enjoy the holidays when we 1st got together. I know that was hard for you. You changed that for me because of your infectious holiday spirit. I really turned over a new leaf and looked forward to them each year. The holidays will never be the same for me. I wish i could get into the holiday spirit this year, but it makes me sad to not have you here with me. I'll miss waking up Christmas morning next to you and telling you "Merry Christmas" and "I love you". I love and miss you so much.
Last December, we met up in San Francisco for my 40th birthday. As soon as I saw you at the airport I knew that you were tired and not feeling your best but you put on a big smile just the same. There was a crispy chill in the air as we took the bart into Union Square. Union Square was decked out in holiday lights and decor and we giggled in our winter wonderland. We spent the entire weekend walking, shopping, eating, laughing, and talking. Just like always. Each morning, I would walk across the street to Starbucks and bring you back a latte and a pastry. We would lounge around before going to Chinatown for some dim sum. We would shop in all the little novelty shops with the fragrant smells of incense and spices. There was a really old church (in Chinatown) where we stopped inside and prayed. At the end of each day, we would walk to the chocolatier and buy a truffle before going back to our room. Then we would chat in bed and take a "disco" nap before bundling up and walking a few blocks to dinner. I still dream about that Vietnamese restaurant. But more importantly, I dream about our special time together. I tried not to notice when you would take your pain meds even though you would swear that you were feeling "pretty good". I know how hard it must have been for you to make that weekend happen so thank you for loving me so much to make the trip anyways. I think you knew then that it would be our last and that those memories would be a comfort to me later; and they certainly have. For my birthday, you gave me a Tiffany bracelet with what I thought were little pears on it. You corrected me and said they were "teardrops" explaining "because life is bittersweet, Muffler". I cherish that time we had in San Francisco because it incorporated all the many gifts you have given me throughout the years: Love, friendship, wisdom, and lots and lots of laughter. Thank you for giving me the best birthday present ever. I love and miss you so very, very much. Muffler
I went to Rosarito with Arturo & Mirian this past weekend. It had been a while since I’ve been down to Mexico and the first time without you. We had spent so many great times there both with each other and with good friends. I remember when we went to Calafia in 1997 for dinner and being nervous because I was going to propose to you. We walked outside after dinner and I was trying to be all romantic and serious. I finally found a secluded area, but you were your usual upbeat self doing the crazy 80s dance because we could hear the Go-Go’s playing from the hotel. I couldn’t get you to be serious, so I finally had to just do it and I got down on one knee and asked you to marry me. I remember how surprised and happy you were when I asked you. I took some of your ashes with me this weekend. I was able to walk down to the beach in Calafia and let them go in the ocean. It was really beautiful because it was just about dusk. I’m happy both Mirian and Arturo were there with me. I’m glad your ashes are there because it’s where I asked you to be my wife. When I go back down to Calafia and Rosarito, I know you’ll always be there with me. I love you always...
Really missing you today... They booked my trip yesterday for the San Antonio BC Conference. I will bring your picture and thoughts of you with me, as I do to all of my events. You are why I do what I do. Love you, sister.
For so many years I enjoyed Monica's friendship,smiles and laughs. Thanks to Antonella for the introduction to Monica so many years ago. One of my favorite memories of Monica was a big shopping day. Monica,Anto and I headed out the Mall the day after Thanksgiving! You know how crazy that is!! We all stopped before entering the store and strecthed to prepare for our Marathon of shopping. People passing by must of thought we were crazy! What a silly and awesome memory. Monica made everything fun and memorable! Always a smile and laugh and kind word she had for everyone! My thoughts go to Jon and Mariam, we will never foget how special Monica was to us all!
It was weird not having you at the San Clemente beach house with me this past weekend. I'm glad I went though because it made me remember the many good times we had there with Jennifer and Paul over the years. Overboard was on cable and it was a sign that you were there with us :-) I took some of your ashes, paddled out past the break and let them go in the water. It was very calming. I think you would have been happy to have your ashes there. I love you Chi Chi.
I miss you and Berta so much. I struggle every day with the thought that you are no longer with me. I know that you and both your Mom & Dad are all together now. I love and miss you.
I am so sorry to hear about Monica. I am good friends with Antonella and had the pleasure of knowing Monica through her. I would see Monica at the many events that Anto has had though the years. I never got the chance to know Monica well but my memory of her is her smile. Even as I write this I can't picture Monica in any other way than her smilling! She was a happy and kind soul and I'm sure that a lotta people will miss her very much. Maybe you have left us for now Monica but your smile will live on forever in all of us!
I think about you every single day.
I was fortunate enough to meet Monica via St. Jude, we were both battling breast cancer. We participated in the St. Jude Fashion Show and it was at this time I came to know Monica. She possessed a certain ray of happiness and calm about her. When she walked into a room, people were drawn to her and were pleasantly blessed by her personality. She was not only a beautiful person on the outside, but the inside as well. She will live on in my heart and mind and I will always appreciate her work and contribution for "The Cure". She will be with me when I walk this year and every year thereafter.
First I want to say THANK YOU Auntie Monica for always taking care of me since I was a baby and even when I started to get older you still took care of me Thank you for giving me the name CHA CHA too, I will always have that with me.Thank you for always thinking of me on my birthday every year. I feel really sad and my heart hurts but I know one day I will see you again in heaven. You mean so much to me. I am inspired because of you. You and Uncle Jon are the best auntie and uncle I ever had. I am always thinking about you. I am proud to say I am the other "ChaCha" because that means I am a part of you. I love you forever...from , Alexis
Dear Monica: When I see that Kaiser Permanente Commercial of the Cancer / Guitar Playing Girl Survivor saying: I have Cancer, it does not have me....I think of you...and remember the strength and zest for life back at our 20 yr HS Reunion...your look of white glam in your white pant suit! How fantastic you looked! Style, grace and life! Thank you for the 'encouragement' that night. In sharing my 'story' to you, you really gave me a lift that night. Also, thank you for smiling at me on that 1st school day at Gahr HS in 10th grade! You just don't know how much that made me feel...I knew I was going to make it there, at that public high school. My hope is: May your husband, family and dearest friends 'feel your hugs and hear your laughter' in their quiet moments. Here's to the Smile and Tenderness you showed EVERYONE! !
Dearest Monica, I remember when we were young inseparable teenagers - so many hours spent talking and laughing, then talking some more. Though that was over 25 years ago, I recall clearly how meaningful our friendship was to me and how you were with me through some difficult "teenage" times. I hope that I added to your life as much as you added to mine. I have so many fond memories of becoming young women together - they have a special place in my heart. As I look at my young daughters and reflect on our youth, I pray that they will have a special friendship to shape and support their lives, like I had with you. I love you, Mony. Forever Friends, Carol